Vulnerability.

I say I think it’s best we move on, but when I try my bones ache and miss you so much. I look back at our memories and think how could a love so magnificent just die like that? Our friendship was real, however our relationship was realer. Sometimes I wish I could rewind the time and do things different, hold you a little tighter, and appreciate you just a little bit more. If I could start over with you and do it again but this time it’s better I would feel way more at peace with this situation.

I think about you more then I should, my first true love and yes it was good. Why did what we have be so misunderstood, oh how I wish I could go back in time. You weren’t perfect but I promise to God you were perfect for me. It almost felt like a dream. How where we started and where we departed differs, I never would’ve thought that this shit would burn with agony, the tragedy, wish it was you and me, which equals we. Why couldn’t we be? It’s such a mystery that I haven’t yet grasped, I miss the times you would kiss me from the back.

Oh how I wish I could go back in time, just rewind… and out of this bind of pain and hurt, the life we started we should’ve finished building, it hurts me that we couldn’t heal and rekindle our love. Wish I could go back in time and rewind and change the things that made us feud , wish I could hold you forever and never ever let you go again. It hurts because you were my everything, now you’re gone .. I’m all alone and missing your stable support and solid advice. I know it’s my fault why we didn’t survive , and that I may regret for the rest of my life.

The memory of you won’t die, I ask myself why, all I do is try and move on but it doesn’t feel right , it doesn’t feel like the right thing to do. Oh how you kept me sane in this world of madness, the truth hurts, when you realize what you wanted isn’t here anymore with you. I look back at our pictures and how happy we really were. But why aren’t you here ? Why aren’t there? Sadness fills me when I’m reminded of you because I no longer have the feelings of your truth. Wish I could go back in time and make it right, none of the things I’m going through would even be alive. Sadness is out of the equation, I swear it’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think of your haven.

Be mine for life ?!?!!!!